BOO!
i declare this blog dead coz i'm toooooooooooooooooooooooo lazy to update :D
Pester me and i'll consider updating coz i give in to peer pressure.
saved the world at 8:07 PM ;
Praise the Lord!
met regina hong in my church today. i was like, wow! another zhonghuarian in my church! didn't noe that she attended that church until today :O
Give thanks to God for putting me in that school :D
saved the world at 1:39 PM ;
Today was probably one of the worst day of my life.
We went to all saints home
thinking that we were prepared.
but in fact it was a disaster waiting to happen.
went there,
The boys did not noe wat to do at all
coz they were not briefed on what to do there.
first event was sing along session.
very disappointing.
well can't really blame it all on the boys,
we didn't get the chance to really practise it during singspiration.
so i only heard the front row sang
the rest of the boys at the back were in their small groups having their own conversation
next item was chicken dance.
supposed to be very lively and stuff
but the boys were very shy
didn't want to do the dance
hey.
what are we supposed to do there?
we are supposed to entertain and interact with the old folks.
how would you feel if you were one of the old folks there
75+ years old
with schools coming every now and then,
and you see bb boys coming in to make a fool of themselves.
i'll get pissed and bored of this nonsense.
You noe this incident was so serious that the lady wanted to cancel all our programs there and bring the elderly residents back to their wards?
it was mr eswaran who pleaded with the lady to allow us to entertain them till 11am.
sorry to primer wei siong for getting you scolded
sorry to sir keegan, and mr eswaran for getting you all scolded as well.
sorry to sir kk, coz i believe i've let bb48th coy down.
sorry for tarnishing our reputation at all saints home that you have built up over the last 9 years.
sorry for not being able to manage the company well
sorry for disapointing you.
and to all others,
sorry for the confusion today.
after baptism class,
i walked my way back home.
i read the message from kenan and kelvin kua,
giving apologies and cheer up messages.
I just didn't noe what to reply them
and in my mind a few thoughts ran through.
'why am i such a failure?'
'Why me?'
'why do i have to carry this yoke of leadership on my back?
'why can't i act and behave like everyone else?'
'Its my fault.'
'that the boys were not briefed before hand'
'I cannot make it, why me?'
and these thoughts just caused tears to stream out.
i didn't care who looked at me.
coz i was thinking to myself
'Why me?!'
Why do i have to suffer so much right now????!!
i believe we the sec 3s need to change.
today, i'm not looking for apologies and broken promises.
but what i desire for all of us is to change.
in our attitude towards bb.
When can we be truly enthusiastic abt our cca?
How many of us can say 'i love going for bb'? like our previous batches of seniors?
when can we be really concerned about whats happening in bb?
when can we offer our time and life to commit to this cca?
sad to say,
the level of commitment in bb for some of you is clearly insufficent.
i really hope that today's disaster is a wake up call for us.
It doesn't end here.
We still have an obstacle course in front of us.
upcoming LDC annual camp
i really desire to see everyone working together
as a team
to at least atone for our screw up today.
I want to scream, until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson
I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep
So I don't have to make a bad impression
I need to start to be myself
Cause I'm sick of everybody else
I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man
I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
I wanna take back all the shit that I have done
But I guess you were better off without me
I need to start to be myself
Cause I'm sick of everybody else
I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now, I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man
I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate
I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate
I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate
I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now, I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man
(I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
I won't let you bring me down
(I'm always too late, you never got your story straight, I'm always up late, I think I'm everything you hate)
It's here and now I'm breaking out
(I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
I will learn to love again
(I'm always too late, you never got your story straight)
But I will stand a broken man
saved the world at 8:36 PM ;
